I've made some major mistakes

How many mistakes can one man make in a few years, and how big do they have to be.   Apparently in my case they don't have to be many and they vary by size from small to ginormous... In 2011 I got married, apparently too early to know what a lying, cheating, abusive and using bitch she was.  Sadly it took seven months for me to figure it out.   Thankfully the divorce was relatively painless because I didn't make her the mother of my children... Thank God for that.  Soon after all that was over I fell in love with a very wonderful woman and still love her, sadly there were major bumps on the way.   One that has very nearly derailed us completely.  Not going into a long description, but because of missed and mixed signals I cheated on her while she was at school abroad.   I'm not proud of what I've done... It was the same shit my useless ex-wife did to me and I did it to someone that deserves and deserved so much better at my hands.   She has given me a second chance to put it generously and I don't deserve it... I'll be thankful for her generosity and I'll never touch another woman in a sexual manner online or in person ever again... I'll make myself into a eunuch first.

Forgive me

Oh great spirit, high God of all, I ask for forgiveness for what I did too hurt the woman you gave to me after my disastrous marriage.   I squandered your gift to me because I was a fool.  I wasn't patient, I let my loneliness cloud my mind and hurt the angel you gave to me.   It is by your grace and hers that she's even having anything to do with me.   Thank you for your gift and entwining our souls so that I can never hurt her again.   I realized I loved her more than anything and I know I've a lot to rebuild, but thank you for giving me the chance.   I don't deserve it at all, but your great love for me has given me so many gifts. I give thanks in your holy name,
A-ho