Why

Why do I still think about alicia from time to time in the wee dark hours in the morning?  Why does some deep dark part of me still yearn for her arms?  She betrayed me, cheated on me and got herself pregnant.  All that I could have forgiven, but the lying I could not forgive.   She just could not handle me honestly, ever nor could she even show me any ounce of passion when someone was looking.   So, explain to me why I still want her when I have t'keya?  It doesn't make any sense at all...

Dear God...

I know you're testing my patience and the strength of my love for T'Keya.   I know in the late hours of the day I realize that thoughts about an ex that I haven't fully purged from my heart and mind sneak in.   However, as much as I do have those feelings still for Alicia, my feelings for T'Keya are stronger.   Please don't make me wait too long for you to put in the ear of the parole board to let her go.   I need her so much.   She's the other side of my soul and heart.   I'm so empty without her.

Why

Why do I still have feelings for her, why? She destroyed my heart and betrayed me. Why when I'm deeply in love with T'Keya do I still think fondly of that heartless bitch Alicia? I really need T'Keya here as soon as possible because until I'm with her I think I'll be conflicted until she's here. That's just the way it is I guess.

Moved on

Never thought after what Alicia did to my heart and soul that I'd be ready to love again.  Having her cheat on me when we were trying to work on saving our relationship, not only that but getting herself knocked up in the process was really the last straw.  If she had talked with me, even once had been honest with me then I wouldn't wish she would disappear like I do.  Honestly, if .  she were to beg forgiveness or ask to be my friend again, I'd spit in her face.  I'd have to have gotten a few screws loosened for that to happen again.  Anyway, that's not the point of this blog entry.  The pictured young lady is.  This is the woman who healed my heart and soul, no matter that she's incarcerated in Las Vegas right now.  She took the desiccated scraps of my heart and rebuilt them.  This woman, my T'Keya has rejuvenated my heart and soul, and I gladly give it to her for all time. 

Co-sign

I've no problem with needing student loans especially if you're living on the college campus, but I never want to cosign for anything. If it goes wrong, I'm responsible. My parents feel the same way, but if Alicia needs a cosign I don't know where she'll find someone willing. Her parents are on the country teat so it's no go there, and I've enough problems keeping a roof over my head. I hope something drops for her soon.

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Cause I love you by Johnny Cash

This was the song I dedicated to you.  I love you.

I’ll sweep out your chimney 
yes and, I will bring you flowers
yes and, I will do for you
Most anything you want me to

If we live in a cottage
You will feel like it’s a castle
By the royal way you’re treated
And attention shown to you

I’ll be there beside you
If you need a cryin' shoulder
Yes, and I’ll be there to listen
When you need to talk to me

When you wake up in the darkness
I will put my arms around you
And hold you 'til the mornin' sun 
Comes shinin’ through the trees

I’ll be right beside you
No matter where you travel
I’ll be there to cheer you
Till the sun comes shinin' through

If we’re ever parted 
I will keep the tie that binds us
And I’ll never let it break
’Cause I love you 

I will bring you honey
From the bee tree in the meadow
And the first time there’s a rainbow
I’ll bring you a pot of gold

I’ll Pick up all your troubles
And I’ll throw ‘em in the river
Then I’ll bundle down beside you
And I’ll keep you from the cold

I’ll be right beside you
No matter where you travel
I’ll be there to cheer you
Till the sun comes shinin' through

If we’re ever parted 
I will keep the tie that binds us
And I’ll never let it break
’Cause I love you

My love

My love, I am yours.
You have opened my heart's closed doors.
My heart was burned and bruised,
I thought my ability to love I'd lose.
You brought me back
From loneliness black.
For that i am ever yours.

Explanation

Well, I've recently used this blog to write poetry, and it has been inspired by a very special person.  Recently I got divorced from a useless slut that had promised to love honor and obey me only to run out on me when she felt that being a wife was way too hard.  If you sense bitterness in my words, then you're right.  I'm still in pain.  Anyway, to keep going in the story, two weeks ago yesterday I was reunited with a friend in N. Attleboro.  One thing led to another and we started kissing.  Needless to say, that kiss lifted a great weight off my heart left by a hateful bitch, and I have been inspired to write poetry at odd intervals, but no less inspired by one who has unshackled my heart.  I love you AAM.

How did it happen?

How did it happen?  I really don't know.  A love that reaches down to my soul.  A love long destroyed by a faithless wife's toys.  Now here i am smitten again by one who listened to my deep pain.  She is my heart, and I'll never say no.  I'll be with her forever more.