Did you ever have a bad feeling about someone or something? I've got that about Alicia right now. She had a big blowout with the guy she calls her boyfriend. He thought because I'm being honest about my feelings with Alicia that she's cheating on him with me. Quite the trick since she's there in Rhode Island and I'm here. The reason he was angry is because he hacked her phone. I don't care what you feel or how hurt you are, nothing gives you the right to invade someone's privacy. Not only that she was told that she's no longer able to adopt her sister. So problem upon problem caused her anxiety to fire up like crazy. The reason I've a bad feeling is I've felt weak, tired and depressed all day despite having a good nights sleep and being in a good mood. I'm very scared and worried and I can't do anything...
Wednesday, April 1, 2015
Friday, November 8, 2013
Missing my baby
I sit here alone in my apartment while my baby is in Krakow, Poland having a mini vacation from the university of limerick and missing her. I wish that she could get away from family issues, but as long as she's online and her family is too she can't get away from it completely. She has this aunt that hates my guts and I don't know why. I know I'm a lot older than her niece, but I'm sensing it's more than that. I've a feeling her aunt doesn't like to share her affections with anyone else, much less a boyfriend. Yes, I'm older than Alicia, yes I'm recently divorced (well, last year I was divorced) but that doesn't mean I'm stealing Alicia's affection for her family, deserved affection or not. Her aunt needs to learn to share, or she's going to find out that Alicia will cut her out of her life forever. Her aunt and her brother, her uncle, are already using her as a tool to destroy her family and Alicia has had enough of that. Her aunt tries to take her (Alicia) away from me and Alicia might kill her.
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
I don't want to be in the middle
I don't want to be in the middle of my baby's family drama. Her dad cooked his own goose with what he allegedly did, and she's cut herself off from her family for a while. She's doing the right thing for herself and no amount of her parents calling me will make me deal with them. I can't trust my words and if Alicia wanted to say anything to them, she would. It's not my issue.
Well, it's happened
I knew it was going to happen eventually... Alicia's dad is in jail. He couldn't keep his hands off one of Alicia's friends and got too touchy feely for her standards. Some people believe he did it, some don't. Personally,I think he did it. The first moment I met him he oozed an evil aura, the kind of aura that told me he was dangerous. The kind of aura that told me if I were female, I shouldn't be alone with him. This is going to tear the family apart, and honestly that's for the best. The family will thrive without him being there. The best I can do is stand by and help the woman I love. Hang in there baby.
Friday, September 27, 2013
Well, it's happened
I knew it was going to happen eventually... Alicia's dad is in jail. He couldn't keep his hands off one of Alicia's friends and got too touchy feely for her standards. Some people believe he did it, some don't. Personally,I think he did it. The first moment I met him he oozed an evil aura, the kind of aura that told me he was dangerous. The kind of aura that told me if I were female, I shouldn't be alone with him. This is going to tear the family apart, and honestly that's for the best. The family will thrive without him being there. The best I can do is stand by and help the woman I love. Hang in there baby.
